5/30/08

Watching For God’s Voice

As Monica mentioned a few posts ago, we were given a bird feeder for Mother’s Day and have planted it in the landscaping at the end of our porch. And as she said, I’m quite fond of it. I love to watch them and listen to them sing. I’ve counted at least seven different kinds of birds snacking out there, and it’s amazing how quickly they go through seed.

I recently filled the feeder halfway and had hardly stepped out of the landscaping before a few finches came in for a morning snack. Periodically throughout the day I peeked through the window to see one or two birds feeding at a time. Later I went to run an errand and checked on the feeder again. To my surprise about a quarter of the food was gone! By the time I got back from my errand I expected to see feathered pigs flying about—the feeder was nearly empty! I thought, “Man, I can’t keep filling this thing everyday like this. You little pigs will have to wait a week.”

Then I noticed how much seed was on the ground. Those little pigs had spilled seed everywhere. “Go ahead and waste it. You’re still going to have to wait until next week for a refill,” I thought. A little while later on my way to the kitchen I was surprised to see a handful of different birds all feeding at the same time. A few were on the feeder and several more were on the ground—morning doves, redwing blackbirds, robins and finches. There were probably six or seven of them. I stood there watching them hop and flit around pecking at the seed on the ground for nearly ten minutes before I felt God tapping me on the shoulder.

I had originally been frustrated by the birds spilling seed everywhere. They were abusing the feeder, they were eating too fast and making a mess. But when I saw all those birds on the ground I realized how awesome it was that I could admire all six or seven of them at once instead of just one or two that fit on the feeder. What seemed like a shame or a mess was actually a blessing.

God used that illustration to to get my attention regarding my life right now. With all that’s happened lately it’s so easy to focus only on the negative. The bird feeder incident reminded me that there are positives even when things look hopeless and that despite what things look like, God knows what He’s doing. That doesn’t mean I have to understand everything, just that I need to remember who’s in control. It makes me think: How many other times has God tried showing me something through simple actions or examples? Lately, I’ve been keeping my eyes open for God’s voice. You never know how it’ll sound or what it’ll look like.

5/20/08

Audio From Ethan's Memorial Service

A while ago we'd mentioned we'd put up the audio file from Ethan's service. We just received the CD last night. There are clips from Pastor Paul Martin's message and songs sung by the Alliance Bible Church Praise Band. This is a wonderful gift that we'd like to share with our family and friends. Especially those who could not attend that evening.

Opening Message: Psalm 89
By Pastor Paul Martin
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You Never Let Go
By Matt Redman
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How Great is Our God
By Chris Tomlin
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Naming Ethan Jeremiah
By Pastor Paul Martin
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Everything Glorious
By David Crowder Band
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Tackeling Life's Questions
1. Why does God allow Trisomy-18?
2. Why does God allow tragedy?
By Pastor Paul Martin
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Center
By Charlie Hall and Matt Redman
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Everlasting God
By Lincoln Brewster
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Closing Prayer
By Elder Kary Olsen
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A special thanks to Pastor Paul Martin and the Praise Band: Kary, Hector, Isaiah, Ron, Sam, Amber, Aaron and Reggie. We'd also like to thank our family and friends who continue to pray for us. Thank you Jesus for your steadfast love and paying the ransom for our sins so that we can all be reunited one day.

5/19/08

Dreams of William

I keep having dreams that William is back. I miss him so much. This morning I dreamed he was back but he was only about 10 or 12 years old and a lot shorter. We were getting ready to go on a family trip but stopped for a bathroom break first. Yes, it was time to get up and I had to use the bathroom. I found this video clip of William and his cockatiel he named Bumm.

In Memory of Our Son

We received a gift certificate to a local nursery from Ryan's family to purchase a tree in memory of Ethan. God blessed us with a buy-one-get-one-free sale. On Mothers' Day weekend we planted a fruitless pear tree (Cleveland Select) in the front yard. It had such beautiful white blossoms that week.


Ryan saved us $500 by digging the holes himself

Cleveland Select Fruitless Pear Tree

In the backyard we planted an Autumn Blaze Maple that will turn to a vibrant orange-red in the fall. I like that we can see our trees from every window. The trees have attracted a lot of birds which Ryan is particularly fond of. I think that is also due to the new bird feeder we received as a house warming gift. We are getting acquainted with the different sounds and what kinds of birds they belong to.


Autumn Blaze Maple

In addition to trees we also did a little landscaping over Mothers' Day weekend and had a BBQ with my family, Grandma and Klaus. We had a truckload of black dirt on our driveway all winter that needed to be put to use and I used my birthday money to buy some perennials and hanging baskets. We planted Black-eyed Susans, Russian Sage, white Phlox, and Alliums (Blooming Onions). We also planted the Wine and Rose bush we received from Ryan's sister Erika and family in memory of Ethan.


Hayden helped too ... playin' in the dirt & drawing with chalk

What garden is complete with out a garden gnome?

Remembering Grandma Betty


Grandpa Tony, Grandma Betty, Judy and Bob

A week ago Friday Ryan lost his grandmother. We celebrated her 87th birthday with a chocolate ice cream cake on April 5. In the past week we attended her wake and funeral. It was a little difficult being back at the funeral home after saying good-bye to my brother William.

It's a little weird how all three of these recent deaths tie together. My brother died on Grandma Betty's birthday. Grandma's funeral was the week Ethan was due. I often wonder what God has planned for us after losing three loved ones in less than two months.

My entire family came to Grandma's wake. I wasn't sure if they'd be ready to be back at the funeral home either, but they did well. I am thankful for how much Ryan's and my families have been supporting each other. It almost feels like one big family.

Bob, Grandma Betty, Grandpa Tony and Judy

The night before Grandma's wake (Mother's Day) Ryan and I went to spend time with his mom and bring a card he made for her. We went through Grandma's photos (boxes and boxes of them) with Mom, Dad, Uncle Bob and Aunt Jan. It was a lot of fun watching them relive memories of their parents and childhood. I was able to learn a lot about Ryan's grandparents. I hadn't known Grandma long before she had a series of strokes. She was a beautiful and adventurous woman who was so in love with her husband (and he with her). In the past week we have all been working to clear out Grandma's house as it will be selling at the end of the month (it has been on the market since Ryan and I moved out 18 months ago) we have found all kinds of notes from Grandma.

In a sterling sliver cocktail shaker Grandma left a note that said Grandpa Tony received the shaker set from his "smoker" (bachelor party) two days before their wedding. In a shoe box with a pair of black dress shoes Grandma left a note addressed to "Kids" and told us these were her dancing shoes. In every gift she received from her husband there was a small note that would read "from my Tony". I thought it was really neat that she left all these notes. It was like finding a treasure each time you'd open something and find a note from her.

Grandma Betty

WONDER LAKE - Elizabeth J. Arnold, 87, of Wonder Lake, died Friday, May 9, 2008, in Wisconsin.

She was born April 5, 1921, in Chicago, to John and Irene (Le Beau) Wolf. On June 15, 1940, she married Anthony Arnold at St. Tarcissus Church in Chicago.

She was a member of the Wonder Lake Bible Church and loved the Lord. She was a loving, devoted wife, mother, grandmother and great-grandmother.

She will be missed by her family and friends. But for those who truly believe, hers was the promise of being together again. She is now rejoicing.

Survivors include her children, Robert (Janice) Arnold and Judy (Kenneth) Klos; her grandchildren, Robert (Sonia) Arnold, Tammy (Michael) Schnaebele, Wade (Candace) Klos, Matthew (Kimberly) Klos, Erika (Juan) Soloj, Andrew (Valerie) Klos and Ryan (Monica) Klos; 21 great-grandchildren; and a sister, Peggy Barrowclift.

She was preceded in death by her parents; her husband; a sister, Alice; two brothers, Jack and Charles; and a great-grandchild, Ethan Jeremiah Klos.

The visitation will be from 4 to 8 p.m. Monday, May 12, at Colonial Funeral Home, 591 Ridgeview Drive, McHenry. The visitation will continue from 10 a.m. until the service at 10:30 a.m. Tuesday, May 13, at Wonder Lake Bible Church, 7501 Howe Road, Wonder Lake.

Interment will be in Ridgewood Cemetery in Des Plaines.

Memorials, if desired, may be made to World Vision Hunger Relief.

5/7/08

Creative in the Kitchen

Many of you know us for our creativity as far as design, photography and writing, but I wanted to share with you how creative my husband is in the kitchen. Not only did he bake cookies last week for me, but he is constantly inventing new meals. I love him for his creativity in the kitchen because it means that everything in the pantry will get eaten. I on the other hand am a picky eater—we make the perfect pair. Yesterday for dinner Ryan found a can of Bush's Baked Beans and made scrambled eggs. Too bad we were out of tortillas (a staple in our house) or else he could've tried this breakfast burrito recipe.

5/3/08

Double Vision

Yesterday afternoon we had a nice little shower mixed with thunder. It lasted just a few minutes, enough to bring down the temperature and take away the humidity. The double rainbow in our backyard was very pretty. It's too bad it's rainy and cold again today, we were hoping to work on some landscaping. Tomorrow is supposed to be warmer and sunny, I hope we'll be able to get a lot done.

God's Rainbow  |  Genesis 9:12-16
And God said, "This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth."